Maxmara's Journals

- me singing Angel by Matt Nathanson

I made this one for my father who passed away in october 9, 2009.
i was about to sing this song on the funural. but i was too emotional to make it.

i miss you .

- Love is blind. true story.

one thing that i've been thinking about is women abuse. I think, if it ever happen to me, i would repressed. We, who is outside of it can easily say: Why do you stay with him? leave him! But i think it's not that easy. If i would ever end up in that position.. i think i would stay there with him anyhow. I would be permanent in the life we ones had, when our love was one. I would be in love with the man who no longer exicted.

i allow my self to get hurt. i did everything for him. He never listend to me and he loan money that i never got back. i allowed myself, hopening on his promises but that i knew from the begining that it would never happend.

Why couldn't i see that? No, beacuse love is blind! It isn't before after when you have passed you realised who it really were. When i tought about that, i started to think "What if".. if i allowed him to treat me like that, i think i would be "her".. that person who ended up in that position. abused.

Love is blind for me, untill someone with a beautiful soul open up my eyes and show me the opposite.
True story.

- bad cough .

i've been sick for more than a week. And it's not fun at all.

I got cough. And it just don't stop! It feels like it just get worse for every single day that pass away. it's so bad that i can't sleep at nights and it makes it hard for me to breathe. i've been trying cough medicin, but it dosen't help. I read an articel that says that dark chocolate is even better then medicine. So maybe that will help? I'm thinking about to make a try.

And btw: i got my hips pierced!
It looks so rad :D Now i just have to make my stomach look great, and after that it probebly will look - awesome!

true story.

- sushi time!

Me and josefine are going to Vatra and eating sushi pretty soon.
I've been such a geek when it comes to sushi. i just love it!

And to night it's gonna be a good night. cuz to night we're going out!
True story.

- Big city lights don't shine for me no more.

Hi everyone, who is reading my blog.
Alot has been happening lately. where should i stard?

Oh yeah, i got a job as a reporter at a new music magazine called "Rock&Roll Magazin". the people that i am working with are awesome, and they have alot of ideas. i think it will turn out well.

On friday i am doin an operation for my wisdom teeth.
like Ty at extreme home makeover always says: Let's do some demo!. i can allready feel the pain that i am going to have afterwards. damn it, what have i get in to? i'm so dead.

And at the same day, i am going to buy a cat for my grandma who is having her birthday the day after. She dosen't know that me and my siblings are going to buy a cat for her. I hope she dosen't get mad :)

have a good day !

when i get sad, i stop being sad and be awesome instead.True Story.

- a hole new world .

I just love the disney movies, the classics!
i'm sitting here the chair in my room and litsen to disney on spotify!
They make me think about my childhood. oh, i just love'em!

My favorite disney movies will be: Lion king, alice in wonderland, Peter Pan, Aladdin and Little mermaid!
But i think each classics are special to me in thier own way.

which disney movie is your favorite?

/ Sannie Schütt

- time to say goodbye

i can't believe you're not with us anymore.
it hurts. i can't make my tears stop falling from my eyes.

the funeral was so beautiful. with all the flowers around the coffin and the sounds that fill the church with beautiful music.
I know that you're on a better place. A place fill with harm and peace.

Dad, i miss you.
and i love you . forever and ever.

- This is halloween

My Halloween was awesome. I were at a friends house who lives far away. I got to know alot of new friends. And they're freaking awesome. I had alot of fun, did you? How was your Halloween?

I was Alice in wonderland if you wonder.

Sannie Schütt xoxo

- Long time ago.

Long time ago sense a wrote something here in this blog, haha.

maybe, you might see that i've done some changes. with the layout i mean.
it's better than the other one. or what do you think?

I've been pretty bussy latley. alot of things have happen.
well, i'm not going to the us and working as an au pair in November. I was supposed to, but then something happen in the end of the summer. So i'm going to do an operation. And after that, maybe in 6 months, im going! Hopefully.

Take care!